Instant Mood Lifters

Sometimes all I need me is some HAPPY. What do you do when your mood is down and you know you need to get it up again ASAP? My emotions has been on a rollercoaster ride lately, not sure why but naturally I blame it on PMS. Mostly lol. That is like the best excuse for me when I have my mood swings in front of 자기야. Kesian him I know.

So before I throw my princessey tantrums at just about anybody, I will try with all my might to calm my inner storm down first. I will try with upbeat, positive songs. And if that fails, I guess my next best alternative is probably some alot of chocolates? Hehe.

Just wanna share some songs which can lift up my mood almost instantaneously and I hope they will do wonders to yours too, if you ever need it of course. Enjoy :)


Pharrell Williams- Happy (My latest addiction!)

BJ Thomas - Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head (Oldies like this does the trick for me)

Barry Manilow - Can't Smile Without You (more oldies hehe)

Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry Be Happy (this is perfect, trust me)

Nat King Cole - L-O-V-E

Anthony Neely - Wake Up (a mixture of English and Chinese lyrics, great lyrics)

Last but not least, a new lift-me-up song I have just heard over the radio today. Love it. Gonna make this my new addiction soon haha.

Peter Marsh - Stop The Clock

Go be HAPPY!

Till then, x!

Everything Is Awesome!

My mood right now.



Everything is awesome when we're living our dream. And my dream is slowly takin its place right now. I can't wait to know what the next second will bring me.

Thank you my dear Good Lord. Forever grateful.

Imma Be A Liger

I have always prided myself on being a Leo. For Leo is the lion and lion to me is fierce, confident, dignified and strong. And that's exactly what I aimed to be and still aiming to be.

Back in my younger years, I used to read those daily horoscopes religiously. Everyday when I flipped open the newspapers, I would dived straight into the horoscope section. Word by word I absorbed them thoroughly into my mind. And then I stopped. Just like that. Not sure why though, but my vague memory of it gently reminds me that it was because of my religion.

And then there are the Chinese zodiac signs, in which I would be automatically glued to the Channel 8 countdown programme on Chinese New Year Eve for the yearly predictions. I was always waitin to see if I got 桃花运 not. Lol. Those were the naive and innocent and single years.

Surprisingly or rather not, I was born in the year of Tiger. So I am known as a Leo Tiger or Liger (lion+tiger geddit?) as I affectionately named myself. As though being born under one fire sign is not prideful enough, therefore I considered myself lucky to be born under TWO. It's not that easy you know?

I m so strong-headed and stubborn that I sometimes piss people around me so much I drive them to the wall. I love testing patience and creatin dramas when there are clearly none in the first place. Only after the drama has been created and volcano has erupted then I'll be satisfied. Omgdness, soundin like a psycho now. But this is exactly what I read on certain websites about my liger characteristics which I believed depicted me perfectly.

I m not someone who take criticism lightly. In fact I take every comment/opinion directed towards me to heart and that is so wrong because I m only goin to create more unhappiness in myself. I m not so proud to admit that I m a good actress, I hide my unhappiness really well. To be brutally honest, I kinda dislike the me who take everythin seriously and end up makin my life so miserable.

Then again, all these emotions are only shown to people really close to me, like family and besties. As for my other half, for the first three months a.k.a the honeymoon period, I'll be on my best behaviour and then after that, I will show my true colours /no

However despite all the criticisms that has been thrown at me i.e. fat, dramatic, blunt, sensitive etc, I can still sometimes laugh them off and all will be well except for one. All but one. Calling me an emotional freak.

To me, being emotional is equivalent to being negative. And so I really really hate it when being told that I m temperamental. Yes, I do cry when I feel overwhelmed, but that only happens when I m havin PMS and yes, I do throw tantrums, but which girl does not do that? So what makes me an emotional person?

When the first person told me that he could not be on my emotional rollercoaster together with me two years ago, I couldn't believe my ears back then. And he had to say it out after our breakup. So I shrugged it off, reassurin myself I m not the sort of person and at the same time hatin that person for his ridiculous comment.

Fast-forward to now, I have not heard of that comment since then until last night. 자기야 said it to me. Though I wasn't at all surprised since I was being pretty hard on him lately, testin his patience and all but my pride decided to be oh-so-righteous and took it upon itself to seek revenge. Cold war.

To be fair, I was already feelin extremely stressed out about lots of stuff and havin him labelled me as an emotional freak when he clearly knew what was goin on in my life right now, a cold war is pretty much justifiable.

Perhaps, just maybe, it's time for me to reflect upon myself and stop acting as though the whole world has owed me zillions. That being said, I m still a very much positive and optimistic person to everyone else.

Need to pray for a bigger heart in 자기야.

A New Beginning. Again.

It was in July four years ago, exactly on my birthday that I began bloggin as a promise to my bestie. And from then on, I have had an on-off relationship with this blog. I m not sure if I m just plain busy or just plain lazy. Well I do believe it's the latter -.-"' I am a skilled procrastinator.

Been thinkin of what to do with this blog and hence began to start re-readin some of the posts. Most of the posts showed the exorbitant amount of unhappiness in me; over life, relationships and studies. Gosh, how much more emo can I be?

I basically blamed every emo post on PMS. Little did I know I had my own thinkin to blame. I have had both the best and the worst worlds when I was in KL, but due to the negativity that I have been buildin up over the years, I have forgotten to be grateful and appreciative. I can only remember the unhappy things that had happened yet I could not see all the beautiful things that was happenin around me at that time. And then I lost it all.

After comin back to JB for good (I have stayed in KL far too long for my likin), my mind went through a major makeover. Like literally. I had learned to let go. Of my past. The regrets and the guilt. I threw them all away. It was not easy at first but I am a much much happy person now. And I am proud of myself :')

So I have decided to save all my previous blogposts as drafts (still cannot bring myself to delete as some of them contained wonderful sweet memories). Hence this blog will be a brand new one again :) Thank you for readin up until here and feel free to stay for more updates, should this blog interest you! It will be a mixed blog with lots of vain pics, travelogue, food porn and whatnots :D

Luke

Finally calmed myself down now after today's dreadful experience, with the help of a river of tears and lots of sleep. Not forgettin Karen's comfortin words. I know you care. Thanks dear. Really appreciate it. Now is the middle of the night. Msn-ing with Luke as he was not asleep yet. Told him of my bad day and he was relatin a similar experience of his to me. Glad that someone actually understood what I was goin through. I was lamentin on my dyin enthusiasm to continue studyin for my remainin papers. This was when he sent me a song sung and composed by Gary Chaw Ge. He told me this song could motivate me as it did the same for him. Listenin to the song now and tryin to understand the lyrics. So far the lyrics of the song is good. Hope it will really lift me up. A million of thanks Luke, for being there for me when I needed someone to talk to the most =)

刮目相看 ( Look With Approval )

Gary Chaw 曹格

告诉你我不是一个会认输的人
gao su ni wo bu shi yi ge hui ren shu de ren
Let me tell you that I m not someone who will give in easily

当我不得不承认

dan wo bu de bu cheng ren

But I can't help but admit that

从跌倒失败

ceng die dao shi bai

I once fell and failed

也曾经守在阴霾

ye ceng jing zou zai yin mai

And also walked under the gloomy clouds

不看不听不说傻傻的发呆

bu kan bu ting bu shuo bu xiao sha sha de fa dai

Not lookin, not hearin, not sayin anythin, just starin in trance

难道我就被打败

nan dao wo jiu bei da bai

It can't be that I m really defeated

多幸运有你
duo xing yun you ni
How lucky I m to have you

使我的生命充满希望
shi wo de sheng ming chong man xi wang
Filled my life with hope

从今之后不在垂头丧气走开
cong jin yi hou bu zai chui tou sang qi zou kai
From now on I will not hang my head low with an air of defeat and walk away

所有人的期待让我站起来
suo you ren de qi dai rang wo zhan qi lai
Everyone's anticipation made me stand up

甩掉了主败
shuai diao le zu ai
Brushin aside all obstacles

从今全打开
cong jin quan da kai
From now on I will be open

我终于明白
wo zhong yu ming bai
I finally understood

FLY

尽全力在飞起来
jin quan li zai fei qi lai
Tryin my best to fly up high again

没有后悔不后退
mei you hou hui bu hou tui
Not regrettin, not movin backwards

我让你刮目相看
wo rang ni gua mu xiang kan
I'll make you look at me with approval

JUST FLY

向世界证明我存在
xiang shi jie zheng ming wo cun zai
Proves my existence to the world

努力过的汗水不断灌溉
nu li guo de han shui bu duan guan gai
My sweat produced from hard work can't stop fallin

美好未来
mei hao wei lai
Beautiful future

Cause I can fly

Yes i can fly

不看不听不说傻傻的发呆
bu kan bu ting bu shuo bu xiao sha sha de fa dai
Not lookin, not hearin, not sayin anythin, just starin in trance

难道我就被打败
nan dao wo jiu bei da bai
It can't be that I m really defeated

多幸运有你
duo xing yun you ni
How lucky I m to have you

使我的生命充满希望
shi wo de sheng ming chong man xi wang
Filled my life with hope

从今之后不在垂头丧气走开
cong jin yi hou bu zai chui tou sang qi zou kai
From now on I will not hang my head low with an air of defeat and walk away

所有人的期待让我站起来
suo you ren de qi dai rang wo zhan qi lai
Everyone's anticipation made me stand up

甩掉了主败
shuai diao le zu ai
Brushin aside all obstacles

从今全打开
cong jin quan da kai
From now on I will be open

我终于明白
wo zhong yu ming bai
I finally understood

FLY

尽全力在飞起来
jin quan li zai fei qi lai
Tryin my best to fly up high again

没有后悔不后退
mei you hou hui bu hou tui
Not regrettin, not movin backwards

我让你刮目相看
wo rang ni gua mu xiang kan
I'll make you look at me with approval

JUST FLY

向世界证明我存
xiang shi jie zheng ming wo cun zai
Proves my existence to the world

努力过的汗水不断灌溉
nu li guo de han shui bu duan guan gai
My sweat produced from hard work can't stop fallin

美好未来
mei hao wei lai
Beautiful future

Cause I can fly

Yes I can fly

FLY

尽全力在飞起来
jin quan li zai fei qi lai
Tryin my best to fly up high again

没有后悔不后退
mei you hou hui bu hou tui
Not regrettin, not movin backwards

我让你刮目相看
wo rang ni gua mu xiang kan
I'll make you look at me with approval

JUST FLY

向世界证明我存在
xiang shi jie zheng ming wo cun zai
Proves my existence to the world

努力过的汗水不断灌溉
nu li guo de han shui bu duan guan gai
My sweat produced from hard work can't stop fallin

美好未来
mei hao wei lai
Beautiful future

Cause I can fly

Yes I can fly

Oh I believe

Yes I believe

I believe

Oh I believe I can fly